My mind so wild?

Too much awareness of your inner feelings . every little way my heart beats differently. Every different way my nose smells things or my eyes roll .. why I should be bothered with it.. Yes am in that club of people who are highly aware of the change of their inner tides . is it a good thing or bad ? Analyzing this requires some deep thought about one’s personality . am jovial and a happy person , I see opportunities and change (in a good way) in most of the things .. So really being highly self aware should be like my next trait in line . and fortunately or not I am . the same zeal drives me crazy and makes me do things and choose paths which are untrodden , makes me think things differently . but sometimes .. Some days ..it just takes a toll on my reserved emotions .I don’t wanna be aware of the changes or be aware of every little thought going on my head . I like it to be free .I wanna like it the way if i could walk into the sunset alone .. For a change without holding someone’s hand and not be highly knowing everything kind of person . it happens like this .. My mind starts being active ,super active and thinks more than it can handle .. Sometimes the guesses and concerns are correct .. But my other part of mind just wants to be lazing around and be comfortable .. Then the period of inner turmoil goes on for a while ,before it starts to forget the reason of the fight itself .. Nd gives way to another thought process .. . . our mind is a weirdo and has a highly inflammable personality of itself , it gives us this goosebumps sometimes ,and sometimes a period of dryness . to think of it our whole existence is controlled by this thing is really strange . controlling freak this mind !! .