3 years to US!

When in love you imagine you will wake up first everyday and make that cup of tea for your loved one and give him a kiss on forehead when he would sleepily open one of his eyes .. and you wonder to yourself how lucky you were to get this human form in your life ….

You imagine the unending love .. you get butterflies in your stomach .. you feel the desire to always keep on holding the person very dearly to you ..

You are always happy .. as there is him to hold your back ..always .. U imagine your life together will be this .. will be that ..

Few years down ..

You look back on these days fondly and think how naive you were .. present is nothing as you ever would have imagined

Hardly any of you wants to wake up first to make that cup of tea .. you fight who has to get up first  :p  days will be so dull sometimes that you would ask yourself “ why god why ..”

The unconditional love and all those poetic emotions get stashed away along with the unwashed tea cups ..

The butterflies would  have long flown away and left behind a trail of memories ..

Somedays you are not happy and you just want to be alone .. you may fight to the extent that you become hopeless of any happiness .. The other person drives you crazy and you start questioning the whole point of love .. There will be days when you have to take the risk even though you know he is not there to hold your back .. you have to fight the urge to break it all off  and just run away ..

So we imagine and construct a  very beautiful life, full of love for eachother but after few years we wonder .. was it worth all that effort  …

Love is not a contest against each other  “like who is the greater lover”  nor it is effortless  .. it is not to be your best self always .. it is not “feeling lucky always  “ ..

It is feeling sad , unlucky  and sometimes as a failure  BUT still being able to be loved and to love .. It is the courage to keep going  ,knowing he will come around eventually .. It is the hope that even though you make the biggest , dumbest blunder of your life , he will understand ..love should make you brave , courageous and a bit crazy too ..It is called the ultimate ride , the adventure but ofcourse with deadends , loops holes and obstacles ..

it is the greatest comeback .. it is the shine after the storm , it is when you look your ugliest and still be kissed on the forehead .. it is in crying together  and laughing at its silliness..It is the fridge magnets which you have collected together over the years .. It is in binge watching netflix and fighting over the characters and stories ..

I won’t be my best always .. i won’t say i won’t fight with you ever .. but it is the promise that i will always be there for you  right around the corner when your anger cools down  :p I may not feel the butterfly but i would never allow the giant elephant of silence to sit in our room too ..

I may not make that first cup of tea in the morning always but i will always drink it with you and listen to your rumblings and morning rants after you make the tea !! …

Happy anniversary dear!